Thursday, September 18, 2008

the good within

This mornings daily reflection read:

I can be free of my old enslaving self. After a while I recognize, and believe in, the good within myself. I see that I have been loved back to recovery by my Higher Power, who envelops me. My Higher Power becomes that source of love and strength that is performing a continuing miracle in me. I am sober . . . and I am grateful.

When I visit my favourite bloggers, I feel like I'm in a meeting. Listening. It's a wonderful way to start the day. I used to hate mornings, now get up early just to be with all of you.

Steve reminded me of an important part of the big book. In the introduction to step 11(page 85), it reads:

It is easy to let up on the spiritual program of action and rest on our laurels. We are headed for trouble if we do, for alcohol is a subtle foe. We are not cured of alcoholism. What we really have is a daily reprieve contingent on the maintenance of our spiritual condition. Every day is a day when we must carry the vision of God's will into all of our activities. "How can I best serve Thee - Thy will (not mine) be done." These are thoughts which must go with us constantly. We can exercise our will power along this line all we wish. It is the proper use of the will.

Much has already been said about receiving strength, inspiration, and direction from Him who has all knowledge and power. If we have carefully followed directions, we have begun to sense the flow of His Spirit into us. To some extent we have become God-conscious. We have begun to develop this vital sixth sense. But we must go further and that means more action.

I need remind myself that I am never cured. I am blessed to have a daily reprieve. I witnessed someone caught up in deep self-pity. That persons world seemed so hopeless and dark. Then I remembered I have lived in that world. For me, the way out took twelve steps. My perception of the world is changing and I am thankful for that. God's will, not my will. Working through my fears and self pity.

One day at a time. Hank.



I agree with absolutely everything you say here.

It makes me so grateful that I don't live in that dark, hopeless place I used to be in.

I have much compassion for those who are trapped in that deep self-pity you mention. I maintain my spiritual condition daily so I will never have to return there.

AlkySeltzer said...

Hank, you sure said a lot here, and I have not the slightest notion as to how Steve reminded you of all that.


Shadow said...

perception is changing. to be able to look back and notice this is happening, wonderful feeling!!!