Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Past few days

Just some places I've been the past few days.

Pondering what self-acceptance really is. Do I accept that I seem incapable of self-accepting these days. Is is letting go of the need to change? To stop struggling with self-pity and fear?

I've been blogging for a year, and at my deepest core, I don't think I've changed. I have found the courage to live life, to stay sober, to do the right things inspite of my feelings. But occasionally I still get trapped in my feelings. So what to do? Keep going to meetings. Keep on talking.

I have gratitude for the beauty of where I live. The wonder of rock and water, trees and seasons. The endless cycle of life.

one day at a time.